written: Monday, 23 November 2015 @ 06:19 ✿ 1 comment[s]
Assalamualaikum. Well, long time no update eheh,, Im still in my sembreak-vacay-mood, but this few days i was struggling (kinda lol) with my jpj test which is today! So yes, alhamdulillah, Im 18,and Ive got my car license! (jerk face) lol alhamdulillah.
My turn was number 22, session 1. Ive been waiting at the car school at 8.30 (which is that EARLY) and they called me to start the test at 11. Could u imagine that? But yeah everything when smooth, alhamdulillah thank to The Lord for that.
(changing my writing to my mother tongue language)
Ehem /batuk/
Side mirror ni penting wei. Syarat test JPJ atas jalan raya, wajib buat CITO (nowadays la i dont know the prev vers).
CITO; Cermin. Isyarat. Titik buta. Olah gerak.
CITO ni apply setiap kali kita gerakkan kenderaan pacuan empat roda kita. C, aksara pertama dalam formula tu, maksud dia yang paling penting lah kan? Obviously, first thing first la. Kalau tak buat C, macam mana nak proceed to ITO?
Cermin, side mirror. Penting. Ok?
Erm dalam kita bergerak ke hadapan, nak capai ke destinasi yang dihajati, sesekali nak susur tepi ke, WAJIB tengok side mirror. Tengok dalam a few seconds (5 saat camtu) then move forward. Ke awak bawak kereta susur tepi terus tak tengok kereta belakang?
This concept apply to our own journey act.
Destinasi : Impian/ Cita cita/ Harapan/ Future zauj ehh?
Kereta belakang : Masa lalu (obviously)
Side mirror : Medium nak throwback
Okay now we start.
Situasi 1:
Bangun pagi, set goal apa kau nak buat harini. Start engine, bismillah, jalan, kejar goal kau.
Situasi 2:
Duk kejar kejar goal ni, kadang penat, rehat sat sambung balik. Kadang terlanggar divider jalan dalam journey tu well dah penat kan. Pastu give up. Haihh. Tengok balik side mirror what have u done to get here, to BE here. Layak ke kau teruskan perjalanan ni?
Situasi 3:
Kau tenung side mirror tu lelama dah kenapa ?! Orang tengok side mirror tu dua tiga saat je pastu jalan balik. Dah. Jalan cepat.
Situasi 4:
Singgah rnr. Tido kejap lah sebelum teruskan perjalan hari esok. Sambil tu check lagi side mirror, adakah hari ini lebih baik dari hari semalam? Muhasabah.
Memories are meant to be remembered cz sometimes we DO need it to reflect. But then, never let yourself drown in your past that long and forget that u can move forward. Go so that u can reach your destination on time.
"Kau tenung side mirror tu lelama dah kenapa ?! Orang tengok side mirror tu dua tiga saat je pastu jalan balik. Dah. Jalan cepat."
written: Sunday, 25 October 2015 @ 06:34 ✿ 2 comment[s]
"Apa?"
Lee diam.
"Lee kau okay tak ni?" Sila dibetulkan. Lenguh main basketball duh tulang aku dah start mereput ke macam mana ni.
Lee membuang pandang ke gelanggang basket. Mata berair.
Muka diraup. Haa sudahh.
*****
Inside out. Basically today i want to potray my thoughts here. Duh. Ni contoh ayat intro tahpape. SKIP.
Inside out. I was a typical boarding school student striving her best for good results for SPM. Secure good result that will absolutely bring me to a good oversea college with scholarship. Yeah. That was my dream bruh. Studying somewhere in the koala and kanggaroo country, enjoying good environment with four different seasons that I would never experience in my no-season-but-summer-and-rain-season-country.
Inside out. With that motivation, and yeah high expectation from people to a boarding school student motivate me. Studying that hard. Gaining points with co-curriculur activity. Being a student leader. Trying to be good to teachers. With that motivation in mind, good result, good place, I keep on climbing to the top.
Inside out. Yes. SPM done. Few months passed. I got my result. Flying colours I guess. Erm. And as Im going to pursue my studies in dentistry, Ive no choice but to held my dream. You need to get a straight A's result to apply for the limited scholarship. Yeah only the cream out of the creamy one can get scholarship from SPM slip (dont worry for other scholarship you dont have to get straight As result to apply,, yes medical courses are that expensives so yeah erm there's hope people rezeki tu luas jangan kecilkan skop pemikiran anda this is just a story)
Inside out. And yeah. Plot twist! Here I am. Doing my foundation in applied health science in a prestigious local university (what? Im proud with my college why not bragging it here /flip shawl/)
Inside out. Im not telling you this story to exxagerate about my 'failure' of not achieving my dream heh. Im telling you that you still can catch your dream. What? With good cgpa of foundation, you still can apply for scholarship if you want to. (macam aku cakap tadi rezeki Allah tu luas jangan kecilkan skop pemikiran anda uhuh)
Inside out. Yes, maybe you will feel envy as when you scrolling down your Instagram and see your friends having fun at California beaches, smiling infront of London Bridge hahah thats happen to me yeah I can feel you. But hey, that's their dream, they are living their dream. You have yours right? Why you have to feel down seeing their achievement then?
Inside out. Keep on dreaming. Keep on trying and make your dream come true. Theres no such thing as failure. It is just you, try to keep in pace and fight for your dream.
Inside out. And me too. Still keep struggling in my up-side-down-life as a foundation student. What? Doing your foundation in local universities are not that easy maa.
And they planned and Allah(also) planned, and Allah indeed is The Best Planner. (3:54)
Inside out. Clearly stated in Surah Al Imran, verse 54, that we plan, do our best and at the end of the day, Allah has The Best Plan. Principle of Qada' and Qadr is clearly proved here. So do your job as a human. Do the best. Our Lord will take care the rest. In syaa Allah.
Inside out. Everyday when you wake up, keep this in mind, if today is your LAST day, what will you do? That will keep u motivated enough. Trust me.
Inside out. This video is REALLY inspiring. That guy graduated today maa. He is not even a human. He is an alien. Probably. Hahahahahahaha.
"Man,, what have I done with my life so far?" /sighed/
Inside out. That video is a wrap of my rant for today. Done !
Sorry Ive wrote this in English. Just cant stand my ability to write an article in English decrease. Arghh used to be good in this. (No. Havent practising my writing skill for such a LONG time. Nope. Theres no MUET classes in cfs IIUM as theyve their own syllibus. And once u exit your english level, no more english practise for u, if u are not a benl stud lah)
*****
"Aku nak cakap kau inspire aku je Kei."
"Eh dah kenapa kau sampai leleh air mata."
Lee diri. Habuk dikibas.
"Mata masuk habuk." Dia sengih. Papan luncur yang tersadai dingkat.
"Kau nak balik tak Kei?"
Kei masih pandang Lee dengan mata terkebil. Ada alien rasuk kawan aku ke weyh?
written: Sunday, 18 October 2015 @ 00:25 ✿ 0 comment[s]
Assalamualaikum. Finally, sembreak. So dah takde alasan aku nak kasi kalau tak update langsung blog. Haih.
TAHNIAH.
So Ive made a list of how to wreck your very long holiday. -tak. Jangan mereput please. Lifeless nanti.
TIPS ON HAVING AN ORGANISE AND SUPER PRODUCTIVE SEM BREAK 1. Make a list of things you want to achieve during your holiday BEFORE it even start
This is a VITAL tip, cz once you start your heavenly holiday, you'll feel like a sloth- not doing anything. Sleep every single days for 25 hours. Move REALLY slow. At least you'll have a list of things you want to do, it was like a guide lah for you.
2. Dicipline
sigh /gelengkepala/ ni aku pon ada masalah. Taknak explain. Kau sendiri pon tahu kan? Skip.
3. Give a copy of the list (refer number one) to your buddy
So that they can pissed you off when the holidays end if you dont achieve what you've written. What they always say? SEMBANG KENCANG- my ego is quite high so this will work on me.
4. Back to number one and continue to 3 and repeat it until your sembreak over.
Ada soalan? Takde? Bagus. Heh.
So this is a long list of my ideas-of-wrecking-my-sembreak. Yes, it can also applied to my dear kiddos yang nak SPM (ganbatte *emojibiceps*) - Tak. Jangan mereput woi. Nanti dalam entry lain aku listkan untuk korang apa yang korang kena buat after SPM.
MY VERY LONGLIST 1, Help your juniors with their killer subject- Erk
2. Social work- join any society laahh
3. Visiting my old school
4. Cafe hunting- fooodddddd
5. Project XXX (what? its a secret.)
6. Housework lalalalala
7. Learn new language- nihongo yay! and yes revise my arabic skill
8. Grooming my kitties awwwhhh
9. Work yeahh- gain money cha chingg and be opportunist
10. Reading lots of books- books=life. Yeah
11. Manga, anime manga, anime, MANGA, ANIMEEE
12. Hiking- tadabbur (learning) alam
13. Baking and gain weigh
14. CAR LICENSE I NEED THAT
15. yada yada yadaa
*basically it is easy, just list down every single activities that you find can improve your skills.
*it is important to list down REALISTIC goals. but then dare to be different- in a good way laa. You dont want to end up being a laughing stock when your holiday is over right?
Have fun wrecking your break ! YEAHH
*****
Buku rujukan McGrawhill Chemistry disusun dan disimpan dalam luggage. Pelipis diurut.
"Alhamdulillah" Paper Chemistry done.
Iphone 5s milik Kei begetar. Notification menandakan ada mesej whatsapp masuk.
written: Tuesday, 7 July 2015 @ 20:33 ✿ 0 comment[s]
"Kenapa ? Kenapa orang macam mereka tak diberi peluang seperti orang lain ? Bukankah mereka sama ? Human with feelings . Mereka juga pencinta . Tapi kenapa ?"
"Woi kau dah kenapa ? Drama ." Selamba Kei menjawab . Buat dah drama dia . Silverberg Chemistry yang boleh tahan tebal diselak .
"Nope just reading that one article . Aku terfikir kenapa tak boleh ?"
"Kau demam ke ? Straight tak ni ?"
Lee angkat kening . Muka tak puas hati . Kau nampak aku bengkang-bengkok ke apa .
"Aku cakap sebab islam kan promote sama-rata . Hmm . Bukan aku cuba mempersoalkan perbuatan kaum nabi Lut yang terang-terangan dilaknat Tuhan . Bukan tu maksud aku . Aku cuma terfikir ."
Kei sengih . "Kau tau tak cerita pasal pelangi ?"
Muka Lee berkerut cuba mengingat . Pelangi mana pulak ni . Yang pasal legend budak-budak dekat hujung pelangi ada banyak emas tu aku tau lah .
"Rainbow ."
Lahh Cakap lah pasal rainbow, that symbol of LGBT . Cerita pasal tu aku tau lah .
"Lee, ingat kenapa rainbow symbol of LGBT? Symbol of self-identification which demonstrate unity and pride ."
Lee mengangguk . Masih tak faham apa yang cuba disampaikan .
"Yes . Islam promote kesama-rataan . Kan ? And everything yang Islam bawa suit fitrah manusia . Al-Quran turun zaman nabi Muhammad . But still kitab suci yang satu ni flexible sampai sekarang . Tak kira masa . Macam rainbow . Ada banyak colour . Flexible ."
"But then . Perkara basic tak boleh ditukar . Contoh solat, kau tak boleh suka hati nak solat subuh 3 rakaat sebab kau rasa 2 rakaat tu sikit sangat . Hahah . But yes, ada variation dalam cara solat mengikut mazhab masing-masing . Pokoknya perkara asal tak boleh ditukar ."
Kei tergelak menampakkan giginya yang tersusun rapi .
"Sama macam kes pelangi. Yes ada variation . But still asal pelangi daripada cahaya matahari yang colourful but dah composed and become white light . Dispersion of light yang buat dia nampak colourful. Angle reflection yang berbeza membuatkan colours tu berbeza . But then yang visible without dispersion, colour dia satu . Putih . Pokoknya satu . Masih satu . Tak boleh tukar ."
Lee hanya mengangguk . Mukanya sedikit berubah . "Yes, honest aku sebenarnya kesian with those yang melanggar fitrah . Macam sebenarnya bukan tu yang dia nak erm . Aku nak tolong spesies diorang tapi aku tak tahu macam mana . Sumpah aku keliru ."
"Teringat dia ?"
Kei mengangguk perlahan .
"Doakan dia sahabat . Semoga dia berubah . "
Lee mengoyak senyuman namun masih hambar .
Doakan dia . Perlahan Kei mengulang .
******
Yes finally . I've waiting for such a long time nak tulis ni . Tapi assignment revision and some personal problem halang aku daripada tulis pasal ni . Yes . Same-sex marriage legalisation in USA . Basically Us bukan negara first yang legalise same-sex marriage, 21st to be exact, But yes, US, a big country . Mana lah tak satu dunia kecoh .
Nak cakap pasal side effect dia, wow berjela . Just google it, semua keluar . Geleng kepala .
But yes perkara ni buat kita reflect balik diri kita . Muhasabah diri . Yang benda macam ni occur dalam society, maybe our own friend ? Siapa tahu kan ?
It'snt that late selagi kau masih bernafas . Help them . Lend your hand . C'mon. Be brave and take the risk . Mana tau tiba-tiba mereka sambut tangan kau bukan tangan aku .
Reflect .
PS//cerita ni aku kutip daripada inche gabbana but in my own understanding . So kalau salah aku mohon tegur .
written: Wednesday, 3 June 2015 @ 23:25 ✿ 0 comment[s]
"Huh ."
Kei tersenyum . "Aih baru masuk seminggu dah mengeluh ?"
"Culture shock ."
Lee angkat bahu . Katil dikibas . Duduk .
"Better organised ourselves before the classes start for sure ." Kei membebel sendiri .
Lee senyum malas . "Kan.."
Lirih dia menjawab . Headphones on . Folder 'my precious' played .
*****
Assalamualaikum brothers and sisters . So yeah basically im officially a cfs iium pj student after the baiah ceremony . Alhamdulillah . Everything is just fine . Just culture shock sikit maybe sebab dulu dekat hostel ada rules semua tiba-tiba kat sini macam okay, suka hati awak la nak bangun pukul berapa . Nak tidur sehari suntuk pon boleh . Sengih .
So for what happened during taaruf week (ta'we) you can just read it at twitter with hashtag tawe .
I've done hearing my subject briefing by the chemistry department . Honest excited . Can't wait for the lectures for sure . *ni betul serius tak perli *
So theres some advices i want to share . (honest baru dapat tadi from the lecturer for sure )
Habit .
Ok the lecturer talked about habit act .
Personal victory . Society victory .
For personal victory, it's about how we behave . How we organise ourselves . How we contribute to the society . How . How . and How .
Ok so basically what he explained macam cliche . Semua program motivasi ada cakap pasal time management, pasal hablu mina annas (hubungan dengan manusia) and paling penting hablu mina Allah (hubungan dengan Allah)
Tapi ada satu dia sebut, macam eye opener for me .
Proscastinate .
I'm a proscastinator . Mengaku . Tunduk .
I've tried to change it . Setiap kali ada homework terus siapkan . Okay alhamdulillah .
Tapi sebenarnya bila buat macam tu aku rasa maca robot . Tapi aku teruskan sebab "aku taknak jadi proscastinator ."
Tadi lecturer sebut 'knowing priorities' dan phrase tu buat aku sedar apa yang aku salah dalam memahami istilah 'proscastinating'
Sounds cliche much . Huh .
Tapi betul tu apa aku rasa . Sebab mungkin terlalu fokus nak jadi orang yang productive sampai lupa nak asingkan mana satu priority mana satu boleh buat kemudian .
Jadi take note okay anak-anak . Sila label mana satu priority mana satu bukan letak tepi kejap .
((Al-Asr :1-3))
Surah pendek tapi mantap pergh . Complete . Allah tekankan pasal masa, makhluk yang penting, kena jaga, organised . So that you'll live a proactive life with perfect results in everything .
written: Tuesday, 12 May 2015 @ 08:24 ✿ 0 comment[s]
Assalamualaikum brothers and sisters . So ye aku tau lama sangat aku tak update blog hadoi . Entah mood tu kadang lari and lately banyak sangat kerja yang perlu disiapkan . Student-to-be eheh sila faham . Okay ini semua dusta belaka sila maafan kekhilafan saya .
I have that syndrome called proscastinate . Dia datang masa aku malas . Aku ni rajin orangnya . Rajin sangat serius . Okay tak ini dusta . Haha hambar .
Entah yang pasti aku nak mintak maaf sangat pasal cerita Kei dengan Lee yang terbengkalai (kalau ada yang berminat follow lah) in syaa Allah soon I'll update . Sungguh angin ribut taufan mana entah datang langgar aku sekarang . Aku mohon maaf .
A little bit about myself . Result UPU keluar dah . Jadi aku yang umur dia 18 tahun ni sangat excited . Alhamdulillah aku dapat sambung belajar dekat tempat yang aku nak . Sungguh .
Aku ingat lagi saat ambil result SPM, berjurai air mata . Sedih dia Allah je yang tahu . Sungguh . Normal lah bagi manusia sedih akan sesuatu hajat yang tak tercapai . Sungguh 3 Mac tu rasa macam mayat hidup .
Tapi entah perancangan Allah tu sempurna . Sebab bila result UPU keluar, I've got what I want .
Moral : Jangan risau kalau tak dapat sesuatu yang kita nak sebab Allah mesti dah simpan something yang lebih baik untuk kita .
And they (the unbelievers) plotted and planned and Allah planned to . And He is The Best Planner indeed . ((3:54))
Mereka kata kita typical kalau buat semua perkara macam orang biasa buat . Aku nak jadi luar biasa . Identiti aku, cara aku .
*****
"Kei ."
"Hmm ?"
Kei gigih memberus baju menjawab tanpa menoleh .
"Proscastinate tu ape ?"
"Proscastinate tu bertangguh . Macam kau . Bakul baju kotor tu dah bertimbun bila nak basuh ?"
Belakang Kei dilibas dengan buku kulit keras Black Beauty, J.K Rowling .
"Kejap lagi aku basuh la ."
Kei tersengih sambil memerhati gerak Lee yang dah bergerak ke biliknya .
written: Wednesday, 22 April 2015 @ 19:06 ✿ 0 comment[s]
Sebab hidup ni sementara . Tak lama . Senyum kelat .
Dan (sebutkanlah peristiwa) Nabi Ayub, ketika ia berdoa merayu kepada Tuhannya dengan berkata : "Sesungguhnya aku ditimpa penyakit, sedang Engkaulah sahaja yang lebih mengasihani daripada segala (yang lain) yang mengasihani ." . (21 :83)
Dahi berkerut tahan sakit apabila tube iv (intravenous) dimasukkan kedalam vein . Kalimah suci berulang kali disebut dalam hati, berdoa agar dikurangkan sakit .
Tahan Lee tahan . Hilang macho nanti .
Sebenarnya taklah sakit mana setakat masukkan tube iv tapi vein dia yang semula jadi kecil menyebabkan dia sakit .
"Saline drip done ." Kei menunjukkan thumbs up kepada Lee .
"Huh . Layan aku macam budak kecik lagi ." Muka ditarik .
Kei sengih ." Kau tu . Kata nak ambil medic . Tapi takut darah ."
"Takut darah tu lain dengan instinct nak selamatkan orang . "
Kei . Muhammad Khairul Ikhwan . Sebenarnya dia suruh panggil Khair tapi Kei lagi senang nak sebut eheh .
Jiran yang boleh main aci redah nak cakap apa . Dah macam adik-beradik . Kot la . 'Coz I've no sibling .
"Breakfast ?" Kei tersenyum . Mangkuk berisi bubur yang dihantar nurse bertugas ditolak ke arah Lee .
Lee diam . Refused . Muak . Serius .
Kei tersenyum . Tangannya segera mencari sesuatu daripada dalam beg .
"Aku dah agak kau tak nak makan . Sebab tu kau kurus ."
Penutup tupperware dibuka daripada bekasnya . Olio .
"Aku tau kau sayang aku ." Senyum .
"Hah . Banyaklah kau . Makan banyak-banyak baru cepat sihat ."
Senyuman Lee pudar . "Esok kau tunggu lagi ?"
"In syaa Allah . Aku tau kau kuat ." Mata Kei berair . Entah kenapa tiba-tiba rasa macam nak nangis . Tapi dia cuba senyum .
Lee angguk perlahan . "Allah takkan menzalimi hambaNya kan Kei ?"
"Sebab Allah itu Maha Penyayang ." Kei senyum kelat .
Esok .
*****
Eh ? Ye saya tahu agak pelik starter cerita wahai sahabat . Aku dah kata jalan cerita dia random kan ? Senyum .
Jadi nak memudahkan cerita, Lee's story akan ada hashtag sebelah title ok . Senang kan ? Alhamdulillah .
Aku pakai character lelaki sebab mudah . Mudah nak bayang ? Sebab perempuan ni banyak kena jaga walaupun sekadar cerita erm erm . Erk . Alasan semata-mata . Eheh .
written: Monday, 23 November 2015 @ 06:19 ✿ 1 comment[s]
Assalamualaikum. Well, long time no update eheh,, Im still in my sembreak-vacay-mood, but this few days i was struggling (kinda lol) with my jpj test which is today! So yes, alhamdulillah, Im 18,and Ive got my car license! (jerk face) lol alhamdulillah.
My turn was number 22, session 1. Ive been waiting at the car school at 8.30 (which is that EARLY) and they called me to start the test at 11. Could u imagine that? But yeah everything when smooth, alhamdulillah thank to The Lord for that.
(changing my writing to my mother tongue language)
Ehem /batuk/
Side mirror ni penting wei. Syarat test JPJ atas jalan raya, wajib buat CITO (nowadays la i dont know the prev vers).
CITO; Cermin. Isyarat. Titik buta. Olah gerak.
CITO ni apply setiap kali kita gerakkan kenderaan pacuan empat roda kita. C, aksara pertama dalam formula tu, maksud dia yang paling penting lah kan? Obviously, first thing first la. Kalau tak buat C, macam mana nak proceed to ITO?
Cermin, side mirror. Penting. Ok?
Erm dalam kita bergerak ke hadapan, nak capai ke destinasi yang dihajati, sesekali nak susur tepi ke, WAJIB tengok side mirror. Tengok dalam a few seconds (5 saat camtu) then move forward. Ke awak bawak kereta susur tepi terus tak tengok kereta belakang?
This concept apply to our own journey act.
Destinasi : Impian/ Cita cita/ Harapan/ Future zauj ehh?
Kereta belakang : Masa lalu (obviously)
Side mirror : Medium nak throwback
Okay now we start.
Situasi 1:
Bangun pagi, set goal apa kau nak buat harini. Start engine, bismillah, jalan, kejar goal kau.
Situasi 2:
Duk kejar kejar goal ni, kadang penat, rehat sat sambung balik. Kadang terlanggar divider jalan dalam journey tu well dah penat kan. Pastu give up. Haihh. Tengok balik side mirror what have u done to get here, to BE here. Layak ke kau teruskan perjalanan ni?
Situasi 3:
Kau tenung side mirror tu lelama dah kenapa ?! Orang tengok side mirror tu dua tiga saat je pastu jalan balik. Dah. Jalan cepat.
Situasi 4:
Singgah rnr. Tido kejap lah sebelum teruskan perjalan hari esok. Sambil tu check lagi side mirror, adakah hari ini lebih baik dari hari semalam? Muhasabah.
Memories are meant to be remembered cz sometimes we DO need it to reflect. But then, never let yourself drown in your past that long and forget that u can move forward. Go so that u can reach your destination on time.
"Kau tenung side mirror tu lelama dah kenapa ?! Orang tengok side mirror tu dua tiga saat je pastu jalan balik. Dah. Jalan cepat."
written: Sunday, 25 October 2015 @ 06:34 ✿ 2 comment[s]
"Apa?"
Lee diam.
"Lee kau okay tak ni?" Sila dibetulkan. Lenguh main basketball duh tulang aku dah start mereput ke macam mana ni.
Lee membuang pandang ke gelanggang basket. Mata berair.
Muka diraup. Haa sudahh.
*****
Inside out. Basically today i want to potray my thoughts here. Duh. Ni contoh ayat intro tahpape. SKIP.
Inside out. I was a typical boarding school student striving her best for good results for SPM. Secure good result that will absolutely bring me to a good oversea college with scholarship. Yeah. That was my dream bruh. Studying somewhere in the koala and kanggaroo country, enjoying good environment with four different seasons that I would never experience in my no-season-but-summer-and-rain-season-country.
Inside out. With that motivation, and yeah high expectation from people to a boarding school student motivate me. Studying that hard. Gaining points with co-curriculur activity. Being a student leader. Trying to be good to teachers. With that motivation in mind, good result, good place, I keep on climbing to the top.
Inside out. Yes. SPM done. Few months passed. I got my result. Flying colours I guess. Erm. And as Im going to pursue my studies in dentistry, Ive no choice but to held my dream. You need to get a straight A's result to apply for the limited scholarship. Yeah only the cream out of the creamy one can get scholarship from SPM slip (dont worry for other scholarship you dont have to get straight As result to apply,, yes medical courses are that expensives so yeah erm there's hope people rezeki tu luas jangan kecilkan skop pemikiran anda this is just a story)
Inside out. And yeah. Plot twist! Here I am. Doing my foundation in applied health science in a prestigious local university (what? Im proud with my college why not bragging it here /flip shawl/)
Inside out. Im not telling you this story to exxagerate about my 'failure' of not achieving my dream heh. Im telling you that you still can catch your dream. What? With good cgpa of foundation, you still can apply for scholarship if you want to. (macam aku cakap tadi rezeki Allah tu luas jangan kecilkan skop pemikiran anda uhuh)
Inside out. Yes, maybe you will feel envy as when you scrolling down your Instagram and see your friends having fun at California beaches, smiling infront of London Bridge hahah thats happen to me yeah I can feel you. But hey, that's their dream, they are living their dream. You have yours right? Why you have to feel down seeing their achievement then?
Inside out. Keep on dreaming. Keep on trying and make your dream come true. Theres no such thing as failure. It is just you, try to keep in pace and fight for your dream.
Inside out. And me too. Still keep struggling in my up-side-down-life as a foundation student. What? Doing your foundation in local universities are not that easy maa.
And they planned and Allah(also) planned, and Allah indeed is The Best Planner. (3:54)
Inside out. Clearly stated in Surah Al Imran, verse 54, that we plan, do our best and at the end of the day, Allah has The Best Plan. Principle of Qada' and Qadr is clearly proved here. So do your job as a human. Do the best. Our Lord will take care the rest. In syaa Allah.
Inside out. Everyday when you wake up, keep this in mind, if today is your LAST day, what will you do? That will keep u motivated enough. Trust me.
Inside out. This video is REALLY inspiring. That guy graduated today maa. He is not even a human. He is an alien. Probably. Hahahahahahaha.
"Man,, what have I done with my life so far?" /sighed/
Inside out. That video is a wrap of my rant for today. Done !
Sorry Ive wrote this in English. Just cant stand my ability to write an article in English decrease. Arghh used to be good in this. (No. Havent practising my writing skill for such a LONG time. Nope. Theres no MUET classes in cfs IIUM as theyve their own syllibus. And once u exit your english level, no more english practise for u, if u are not a benl stud lah)
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"Aku nak cakap kau inspire aku je Kei."
"Eh dah kenapa kau sampai leleh air mata."
Lee diri. Habuk dikibas.
"Mata masuk habuk." Dia sengih. Papan luncur yang tersadai dingkat.
"Kau nak balik tak Kei?"
Kei masih pandang Lee dengan mata terkebil. Ada alien rasuk kawan aku ke weyh?
written: Sunday, 18 October 2015 @ 00:25 ✿ 0 comment[s]
Assalamualaikum. Finally, sembreak. So dah takde alasan aku nak kasi kalau tak update langsung blog. Haih.
TAHNIAH.
So Ive made a list of how to wreck your very long holiday. -tak. Jangan mereput please. Lifeless nanti.
TIPS ON HAVING AN ORGANISE AND SUPER PRODUCTIVE SEM BREAK 1. Make a list of things you want to achieve during your holiday BEFORE it even start
This is a VITAL tip, cz once you start your heavenly holiday, you'll feel like a sloth- not doing anything. Sleep every single days for 25 hours. Move REALLY slow. At least you'll have a list of things you want to do, it was like a guide lah for you.
2. Dicipline
sigh /gelengkepala/ ni aku pon ada masalah. Taknak explain. Kau sendiri pon tahu kan? Skip.
3. Give a copy of the list (refer number one) to your buddy
So that they can pissed you off when the holidays end if you dont achieve what you've written. What they always say? SEMBANG KENCANG- my ego is quite high so this will work on me.
4. Back to number one and continue to 3 and repeat it until your sembreak over.
Ada soalan? Takde? Bagus. Heh.
So this is a long list of my ideas-of-wrecking-my-sembreak. Yes, it can also applied to my dear kiddos yang nak SPM (ganbatte *emojibiceps*) - Tak. Jangan mereput woi. Nanti dalam entry lain aku listkan untuk korang apa yang korang kena buat after SPM.
MY VERY LONGLIST 1, Help your juniors with their killer subject- Erk
2. Social work- join any society laahh
3. Visiting my old school
4. Cafe hunting- fooodddddd
5. Project XXX (what? its a secret.)
6. Housework lalalalala
7. Learn new language- nihongo yay! and yes revise my arabic skill
8. Grooming my kitties awwwhhh
9. Work yeahh- gain money cha chingg and be opportunist
10. Reading lots of books- books=life. Yeah
11. Manga, anime manga, anime, MANGA, ANIMEEE
12. Hiking- tadabbur (learning) alam
13. Baking and gain weigh
14. CAR LICENSE I NEED THAT
15. yada yada yadaa
*basically it is easy, just list down every single activities that you find can improve your skills.
*it is important to list down REALISTIC goals. but then dare to be different- in a good way laa. You dont want to end up being a laughing stock when your holiday is over right?
Have fun wrecking your break ! YEAHH
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Buku rujukan McGrawhill Chemistry disusun dan disimpan dalam luggage. Pelipis diurut.
"Alhamdulillah" Paper Chemistry done.
Iphone 5s milik Kei begetar. Notification menandakan ada mesej whatsapp masuk.
written: Tuesday, 7 July 2015 @ 20:33 ✿ 0 comment[s]
"Kenapa ? Kenapa orang macam mereka tak diberi peluang seperti orang lain ? Bukankah mereka sama ? Human with feelings . Mereka juga pencinta . Tapi kenapa ?"
"Woi kau dah kenapa ? Drama ." Selamba Kei menjawab . Buat dah drama dia . Silverberg Chemistry yang boleh tahan tebal diselak .
"Nope just reading that one article . Aku terfikir kenapa tak boleh ?"
"Kau demam ke ? Straight tak ni ?"
Lee angkat kening . Muka tak puas hati . Kau nampak aku bengkang-bengkok ke apa .
"Aku cakap sebab islam kan promote sama-rata . Hmm . Bukan aku cuba mempersoalkan perbuatan kaum nabi Lut yang terang-terangan dilaknat Tuhan . Bukan tu maksud aku . Aku cuma terfikir ."
Kei sengih . "Kau tau tak cerita pasal pelangi ?"
Muka Lee berkerut cuba mengingat . Pelangi mana pulak ni . Yang pasal legend budak-budak dekat hujung pelangi ada banyak emas tu aku tau lah .
"Rainbow ."
Lahh Cakap lah pasal rainbow, that symbol of LGBT . Cerita pasal tu aku tau lah .
"Lee, ingat kenapa rainbow symbol of LGBT? Symbol of self-identification which demonstrate unity and pride ."
Lee mengangguk . Masih tak faham apa yang cuba disampaikan .
"Yes . Islam promote kesama-rataan . Kan ? And everything yang Islam bawa suit fitrah manusia . Al-Quran turun zaman nabi Muhammad . But still kitab suci yang satu ni flexible sampai sekarang . Tak kira masa . Macam rainbow . Ada banyak colour . Flexible ."
"But then . Perkara basic tak boleh ditukar . Contoh solat, kau tak boleh suka hati nak solat subuh 3 rakaat sebab kau rasa 2 rakaat tu sikit sangat . Hahah . But yes, ada variation dalam cara solat mengikut mazhab masing-masing . Pokoknya perkara asal tak boleh ditukar ."
Kei tergelak menampakkan giginya yang tersusun rapi .
"Sama macam kes pelangi. Yes ada variation . But still asal pelangi daripada cahaya matahari yang colourful but dah composed and become white light . Dispersion of light yang buat dia nampak colourful. Angle reflection yang berbeza membuatkan colours tu berbeza . But then yang visible without dispersion, colour dia satu . Putih . Pokoknya satu . Masih satu . Tak boleh tukar ."
Lee hanya mengangguk . Mukanya sedikit berubah . "Yes, honest aku sebenarnya kesian with those yang melanggar fitrah . Macam sebenarnya bukan tu yang dia nak erm . Aku nak tolong spesies diorang tapi aku tak tahu macam mana . Sumpah aku keliru ."
"Teringat dia ?"
Kei mengangguk perlahan .
"Doakan dia sahabat . Semoga dia berubah . "
Lee mengoyak senyuman namun masih hambar .
Doakan dia . Perlahan Kei mengulang .
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Yes finally . I've waiting for such a long time nak tulis ni . Tapi assignment revision and some personal problem halang aku daripada tulis pasal ni . Yes . Same-sex marriage legalisation in USA . Basically Us bukan negara first yang legalise same-sex marriage, 21st to be exact, But yes, US, a big country . Mana lah tak satu dunia kecoh .
Nak cakap pasal side effect dia, wow berjela . Just google it, semua keluar . Geleng kepala .
But yes perkara ni buat kita reflect balik diri kita . Muhasabah diri . Yang benda macam ni occur dalam society, maybe our own friend ? Siapa tahu kan ?
It'snt that late selagi kau masih bernafas . Help them . Lend your hand . C'mon. Be brave and take the risk . Mana tau tiba-tiba mereka sambut tangan kau bukan tangan aku .
Reflect .
PS//cerita ni aku kutip daripada inche gabbana but in my own understanding . So kalau salah aku mohon tegur .
written: Wednesday, 3 June 2015 @ 23:25 ✿ 0 comment[s]
"Huh ."
Kei tersenyum . "Aih baru masuk seminggu dah mengeluh ?"
"Culture shock ."
Lee angkat bahu . Katil dikibas . Duduk .
"Better organised ourselves before the classes start for sure ." Kei membebel sendiri .
Lee senyum malas . "Kan.."
Lirih dia menjawab . Headphones on . Folder 'my precious' played .
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Assalamualaikum brothers and sisters . So yeah basically im officially a cfs iium pj student after the baiah ceremony . Alhamdulillah . Everything is just fine . Just culture shock sikit maybe sebab dulu dekat hostel ada rules semua tiba-tiba kat sini macam okay, suka hati awak la nak bangun pukul berapa . Nak tidur sehari suntuk pon boleh . Sengih .
So for what happened during taaruf week (ta'we) you can just read it at twitter with hashtag tawe .
I've done hearing my subject briefing by the chemistry department . Honest excited . Can't wait for the lectures for sure . *ni betul serius tak perli *
So theres some advices i want to share . (honest baru dapat tadi from the lecturer for sure )
Habit .
Ok the lecturer talked about habit act .
Personal victory . Society victory .
For personal victory, it's about how we behave . How we organise ourselves . How we contribute to the society . How . How . and How .
Ok so basically what he explained macam cliche . Semua program motivasi ada cakap pasal time management, pasal hablu mina annas (hubungan dengan manusia) and paling penting hablu mina Allah (hubungan dengan Allah)
Tapi ada satu dia sebut, macam eye opener for me .
Proscastinate .
I'm a proscastinator . Mengaku . Tunduk .
I've tried to change it . Setiap kali ada homework terus siapkan . Okay alhamdulillah .
Tapi sebenarnya bila buat macam tu aku rasa maca robot . Tapi aku teruskan sebab "aku taknak jadi proscastinator ."
Tadi lecturer sebut 'knowing priorities' dan phrase tu buat aku sedar apa yang aku salah dalam memahami istilah 'proscastinating'
Sounds cliche much . Huh .
Tapi betul tu apa aku rasa . Sebab mungkin terlalu fokus nak jadi orang yang productive sampai lupa nak asingkan mana satu priority mana satu boleh buat kemudian .
Jadi take note okay anak-anak . Sila label mana satu priority mana satu bukan letak tepi kejap .
((Al-Asr :1-3))
Surah pendek tapi mantap pergh . Complete . Allah tekankan pasal masa, makhluk yang penting, kena jaga, organised . So that you'll live a proactive life with perfect results in everything .
written: Tuesday, 12 May 2015 @ 08:24 ✿ 0 comment[s]
Assalamualaikum brothers and sisters . So ye aku tau lama sangat aku tak update blog hadoi . Entah mood tu kadang lari and lately banyak sangat kerja yang perlu disiapkan . Student-to-be eheh sila faham . Okay ini semua dusta belaka sila maafan kekhilafan saya .
I have that syndrome called proscastinate . Dia datang masa aku malas . Aku ni rajin orangnya . Rajin sangat serius . Okay tak ini dusta . Haha hambar .
Entah yang pasti aku nak mintak maaf sangat pasal cerita Kei dengan Lee yang terbengkalai (kalau ada yang berminat follow lah) in syaa Allah soon I'll update . Sungguh angin ribut taufan mana entah datang langgar aku sekarang . Aku mohon maaf .
A little bit about myself . Result UPU keluar dah . Jadi aku yang umur dia 18 tahun ni sangat excited . Alhamdulillah aku dapat sambung belajar dekat tempat yang aku nak . Sungguh .
Aku ingat lagi saat ambil result SPM, berjurai air mata . Sedih dia Allah je yang tahu . Sungguh . Normal lah bagi manusia sedih akan sesuatu hajat yang tak tercapai . Sungguh 3 Mac tu rasa macam mayat hidup .
Tapi entah perancangan Allah tu sempurna . Sebab bila result UPU keluar, I've got what I want .
Moral : Jangan risau kalau tak dapat sesuatu yang kita nak sebab Allah mesti dah simpan something yang lebih baik untuk kita .
And they (the unbelievers) plotted and planned and Allah planned to . And He is The Best Planner indeed . ((3:54))
Mereka kata kita typical kalau buat semua perkara macam orang biasa buat . Aku nak jadi luar biasa . Identiti aku, cara aku .
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"Kei ."
"Hmm ?"
Kei gigih memberus baju menjawab tanpa menoleh .
"Proscastinate tu ape ?"
"Proscastinate tu bertangguh . Macam kau . Bakul baju kotor tu dah bertimbun bila nak basuh ?"
Belakang Kei dilibas dengan buku kulit keras Black Beauty, J.K Rowling .
"Kejap lagi aku basuh la ."
Kei tersengih sambil memerhati gerak Lee yang dah bergerak ke biliknya .
written: Wednesday, 22 April 2015 @ 19:06 ✿ 0 comment[s]
Sebab hidup ni sementara . Tak lama . Senyum kelat .
Dan (sebutkanlah peristiwa) Nabi Ayub, ketika ia berdoa merayu kepada Tuhannya dengan berkata : "Sesungguhnya aku ditimpa penyakit, sedang Engkaulah sahaja yang lebih mengasihani daripada segala (yang lain) yang mengasihani ." . (21 :83)
Dahi berkerut tahan sakit apabila tube iv (intravenous) dimasukkan kedalam vein . Kalimah suci berulang kali disebut dalam hati, berdoa agar dikurangkan sakit .
Tahan Lee tahan . Hilang macho nanti .
Sebenarnya taklah sakit mana setakat masukkan tube iv tapi vein dia yang semula jadi kecil menyebabkan dia sakit .
"Saline drip done ." Kei menunjukkan thumbs up kepada Lee .
"Huh . Layan aku macam budak kecik lagi ." Muka ditarik .
Kei sengih ." Kau tu . Kata nak ambil medic . Tapi takut darah ."
"Takut darah tu lain dengan instinct nak selamatkan orang . "
Kei . Muhammad Khairul Ikhwan . Sebenarnya dia suruh panggil Khair tapi Kei lagi senang nak sebut eheh .
Jiran yang boleh main aci redah nak cakap apa . Dah macam adik-beradik . Kot la . 'Coz I've no sibling .
"Breakfast ?" Kei tersenyum . Mangkuk berisi bubur yang dihantar nurse bertugas ditolak ke arah Lee .
Lee diam . Refused . Muak . Serius .
Kei tersenyum . Tangannya segera mencari sesuatu daripada dalam beg .
"Aku dah agak kau tak nak makan . Sebab tu kau kurus ."
Penutup tupperware dibuka daripada bekasnya . Olio .
"Aku tau kau sayang aku ." Senyum .
"Hah . Banyaklah kau . Makan banyak-banyak baru cepat sihat ."
Senyuman Lee pudar . "Esok kau tunggu lagi ?"
"In syaa Allah . Aku tau kau kuat ." Mata Kei berair . Entah kenapa tiba-tiba rasa macam nak nangis . Tapi dia cuba senyum .
Lee angguk perlahan . "Allah takkan menzalimi hambaNya kan Kei ?"
"Sebab Allah itu Maha Penyayang ." Kei senyum kelat .
Esok .
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Eh ? Ye saya tahu agak pelik starter cerita wahai sahabat . Aku dah kata jalan cerita dia random kan ? Senyum .
Jadi nak memudahkan cerita, Lee's story akan ada hashtag sebelah title ok . Senang kan ? Alhamdulillah .
Aku pakai character lelaki sebab mudah . Mudah nak bayang ? Sebab perempuan ni banyak kena jaga walaupun sekadar cerita erm erm . Erk . Alasan semata-mata . Eheh .
Assalamualaikum (mention it here if u want me to followback)
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Hi there ! Fadhlin. 18 y/o.
currently a CFS IIUM Allied Health Science student.
I love reading. and people who gives me books obviously.
They said language is my forte lulz that sounds legit enough. So I can speak Malay fluently (obviously duhh), English (alhamdulillah) and Arab a little bit. Currently learning (refering to reading dictionary and google the words and pronounciation) jappanesse. Fufu. But then I'll just use malay and english in my rants (?)
Not a hardcore, but Im into asian thingy, anime and kpop so much. It is in my blood and ive grown up with them hahah. So Im sorry (really) for every spam of anime review or kpop song fangirling post
I just erm attached to kpop because of the precious lyric. Yeah, Im a YG Entertainment fan. Bigbang, 2Ne1, Epik High, Akdong Musician, Winner and the most new debut team, Ikon (welcome backk people). Yeah, Im a multifandom, Im attached with the idols based on their lyrics composed and as YG's artist compose their own song, I treasure them. And yeah I do love BTS because of their song's lyric gahahaha. Genre? Im fond to rap because of the beautiful words and rythm.
I love anime ermm simply because I like their plot. Its an animation so sometimes it becomes ridiculous but at the end of the day, the plot do make sense. Maybe Ive grown up with Detective Conan and Inuyasha for such a long time so Im that attached to them. And their moral values is pretty meh. Nope, not an otaku cz Im not that hardcore but if u make me choose between Malay movie, Kdrama and anime, I'll absolutely pick anime (and manga for sure,, what? anime and manga come together in a package)
Thanks for reading my random rants and hey! nice to meet u *smile
